After having a horrible year of graphic design and more mental breakdowns than I can count, it's hard to tell where my life is going at this point. It's crazy to think coming into college I had a whole plan: 4 years, graphic design, no questions asked. Everything was set. And now everything's changing so quick my emotions can't keep up; I never know how to feel. It's so confusing. After a lot of thinking, I'm pretty set on switching my focus to ceramics. It's something I'm decently good at and have potential in, or at least I'd like to think... More importantly though, it's what makes me happy, happier than anything. Not graphic design. The scary part though, what will I do for a job? I certainly can't make a living off of selling work. I have no teaching classes/background, so, what, get a Master's, be a professor, maybe? A job that will be impossible to get since it's not in demand whatsoever.

It's scary to think of my future now; so unpredictable. I'm the type who likes...no, NEEDS to know what's going on, have a plan. It gives me anxiety sometimes thinking of how up-in-the-air my life is now. I guess all I can do is see where life takes me and hope and wish for the best...